Films Returned

My films have been returned, developed and scanned on to CDs. I was nervous. I tentatively opened my post box and there it was, an envelope from Hippo Photo Services. I didn't want to open it. I avoided it for a while, had a cup of tea, pottered about, washed the dishes..... I opened the envelope and put the CD into the laptop and copied the files onto my external hard drive.

I am always super critical of my work and this was no exception. I am disappointed but not surprised that the images are not what I had wanted to achieve. I knew that having only one visit to the Writing Shed may not be enough. After all even the most prestigious photographers may only have one image out of hundreds that they are happy with.

I have to look at them again and see if there is anything I can do. The images are not a complete failure but what I feel about them at the moment, is that they are not good enough for an exhibition at an Art Gallery. They do not have any edge to them, they are pictures but they don't have the spirit of Dylan Thomas in them. I don't normally edit my pictures, especially film, as I like the organic feel that any little additions from the light, the camera, or the lens, has captured. But these would need a lot of editing if I am to use them.

I feel pretty flat really. I have to make a decision about what I am going to do. The cost of printing and framing 10 images is more than I can afford. I was prepared to make some sacrifices but I'm wondering if the sacrifice is worth it.